Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Using Blog as a Blog, instead of a website... 01/27/15

I originally created my poker blog, as a place to log my journey in the poker world, where I had the freedom to talk about whatever I wanted, and whenever I felt like it.  But, somewhere, along the way, I stopped doing that, and starting using it like a website.  Having realized this, I am going to return to using it as a blog, my personal poker blog.

Poker has still taken a back seat to life problems, mostly because of fear.  I was afraid to commit to playing poker full time, because I never had enough of a cushion under me to feel well rolled for any of the poker I was playing*.  I always took shots.  I always pushed as fast as I could push to get to where I had a comfortable roll under me, instead of taking the 'steady eddie' route.  I could have developed the roll, and worked on the skills necessary later, but, instead, I did the opposite.  I developed the skills without waiting for the roll.  If you are too aggressive with your roll, variance WILL catch up to you at one time or another.  It becomes a matter of a statistic probabilty.

*(I tried to err on the side of caution, putting my faith in the 9 to 5 rat race, and have been proven wrong three separate times.  I chose the job over poker, and got burned three times.)

Some people do get lucky, they get through a roll building time with variance in their favor, and make it look easy to the rest of us.  But a far larger percentage of players experience what I did, living too close to the edge, and getting bit in the ass with variance.  I have regrets of the ill-timed shots I took in cash games before major tournaments, that led to me not playing.  I have regrets of NOT taking shots at some of the bigger tournament events, because I WAS using proper bankroll management at the time.  But I am older and wiser now, and have learned from not only my mistakes, but the mistakes I have seen others make.  Experience really is one of the best teachers in many areas of life.

I could go on, and on, about my poker viewpoint, and all the things I've seen and done, but that is not my intent with this post.  Today, I played the micros on ACR at the very bottom.  It was a boring nitfest, but a necessary path to build a roll properly, since I don't have any other means of building one right now.  There is some wisdom to saving up a roll, and entering at a higher level, closer to where ya want to go, but since I don't have this option, we'll just have to make do.

It can feel like torture playing micros at the bottom, and I intend to relieve some of the feeling by blogging about my experiences there.

See you on the virtual felts, for now...