Poker has still taken a back seat to life problems, mostly because of fear. I was afraid to commit to playing poker full time, because I never had enough of a cushion under me to feel well rolled for any of the poker I was playing*. I always took shots. I always pushed as fast as I could push to get to where I had a comfortable roll under me, instead of taking the 'steady eddie' route. I could have developed the roll, and worked on the skills necessary later, but, instead, I did the opposite. I developed the skills without waiting for the roll. If you are too aggressive with your roll, variance WILL catch up to you at one time or another. It becomes a matter of a statistic probabilty.
*(I tried to err on the side of caution, putting my faith in the 9 to 5 rat race, and have been proven wrong three separate times. I chose the job over poker, and got burned three times.)
Some people do get lucky, they get through a roll building time with variance in their favor, and make it look easy to the rest of us. But a far larger percentage of players experience what I did, living too close to the edge, and getting bit in the ass with variance. I have regrets of the ill-timed shots I took in cash games before major tournaments, that led to me not playing. I have regrets of NOT taking shots at some of the bigger tournament events, because I WAS using proper bankroll management at the time. But I am older and wiser now, and have learned from not only my mistakes, but the mistakes I have seen others make. Experience really is one of the best teachers in many areas of life.
I could go on, and on, about my poker viewpoint, and all the things I've seen and done, but that is not my intent with this post. Today, I played the micros on ACR at the very bottom. It was a boring nitfest, but a necessary path to build a roll properly, since I don't have any other means of building one right now. There is some wisdom to saving up a roll, and entering at a higher level, closer to where ya want to go, but since I don't have this option, we'll just have to make do.
It can feel like torture playing micros at the bottom, and I intend to relieve some of the feeling by blogging about my experiences there.
See you on the virtual felts, for now...